Peace: Precious But Fleeting

It is so hard to feel at peace sometimes. We strive for it and it feels illusive.
One area of our lives seems okay and then another one is "sticking out" and making it hard to attain and retain the peace we desire.
I think I am finally at peace about our move. I went through some depression this time with another transition in our lives, even though I am thankful Tom has a job and is working in an area well suited to him. We are closer to our son Daniel and other family and friends.
It took us awhile to find a church but we have finally settled on one. We are starting to feel that some acquaintances are becoming friends. Tom is adjusting somewhat to the four or five overnights a month though part of that will be watching his schedule and not doing as many extra things as he would like.
I of course have been going through another challenge as well. Even though I worked for Weight Watchers three years ago, some aspects of the training and emphases have changed. I am still pulling things together as they train and retrain me. I have met some nice and helpful people through that as well.
Today, I am at peace about our move. Who knows what tomorrow will bring?:). I guess it is good to appreciate it while I have it.

Learning About Ourselves: A Life Long Process

I learned something about myself recently. It really isn't new. It's something I have done repeatedly in my life. Maybe you will be able to identify different areas in your lives that have repeating similarities.
What I found out is that I am not good at dress rehearsals but can usually pull it off at the end. When I was in little plays with our Catholic Youth Organization, the same thing happened. My director wrote me an encouraging note after a performance saying what a very good job I had done. He admitted that it didn't look likely that I could pull it off based on the rehearsals.
As many of you know, I just completed training as a receptionist and leader for Weight Watchers. In both cases, I "clutched" during the pre-evaluation, giving reason for my evaluators to wonder about me. At least I think they were concerned (pretty sure:)). I did not say that I panicked to get attention. I really did!
In both cases, I reviewed everything I had been taught, prayed (and asked several people to join me), did all I could to prepare, and then took a deep breath and did my best. I do know that one of my strong points is to persevere. I don't really consider giving up once I have fully committed. In both cases, I did better than I expected to in the performance time that counted.
It helps us to understand ourselves. Even though I have been through things like this numerous times, I still seem to get "stuck" once in awhile. It is easy to say afterwards that I was too hard on myself..In the middle of it, others who know me are sure I can do it (especially the leading with my gift for gab), but I really don't believe it. I give others similar advice when they are striving for a significant threshold to overcome, but somehow it has to come from the inside. I guess that's what makes us human.
Hope this helps someone understand his or her self today..We're all on this path of self discovery together.